help!

u noe how wen u've been waiting to hear something den u hear it den u get all... i dunno well its not freaked but its somewhere along dat line... i'm surprised i din get mad... i usually do when this topic amongst frenz are brot up... guess i feel diff in this situation cause of the person.. u noe who u r... n i wanna thank u too.. u've made me smile again, after so damn long man... u noe jus wat to say when i need u... u alwis make me feel beta... n u prove to me that not all out there are jerks... ur living proof of one of those very few good guys left... but jus like all the rest... all are either... gay married broke or attached... hahahahahahahaha

MY CUPBOARD COLLAPSED...

who da hell has their cupboard collapse cept me... man im lame... hahaha... gonna spend da day cleanin it up... fuck i never knew i had so damn much clothes... wahahaha

its a family thang...

hung out with my parents today... must admit la... kinda had fun... wahaha... my mum bot me the Don Quixote DVD... damn cool can its the one with MIKHAIL BARYSHNIKOV'S choreography starring him n CYNTHIA HARVEY and the AMERICAN BALLET... oh my gawd... its like my first real DVD... by real i mean not p*****d...hahaha...

came home n did nuthin much la... jus watched my dvd over n over again... i think i can memorise the Dryad Fairy Variation... hahaha....

wooaahh!!!

LADC farkin rockz!!! had their show 2nyte in the atrium between traders hotel and the mall its next too-tanglin i think... haha... n i was farkin oonz... man andy n marcus' turns - awsome.... jenny's six step n seven - si bei best can... n yarra's armless cartwheels - shit ballz...

SONG n me went for dinner after... mackys da best...lined up for an hour at chinablack to have a bad outcome... haha.. nevermind two more months two more months...

wanted to head to rouge but it was filled with jc galz n cutie so wasn't so keen.. headed to insomnia at CHJIMES n met up with marc,nd,yarra n jen... by dat tyme was farkin broke la... damn!!!

we walked all da way to boat quay and haha ended up at chocalate bar... man... super mat place but damn happenin... nd n jen rocked da dance floor as usual... was free flow - cheap liqour but hack who cares...

left choco bar n sat outside n the boss far-esse (plaza) wahaha got us wine... man i felt so damn high after that... song got a bus back,john picked jen n yarra caught a cab back leaving marc nd n me stranded... we went over to mad monks to beg robin who took us all home... so sweet my baby... thank u thank u thank u....

in da cab me n marc karoke akk the way... all our favourites... haha... "tun around..." hahahah aniwae its like 6sumtin n ive got jus a little over 2hrs to sleep n dat sucks... hahah... gotta work tmr... thank gawd i love my girls...

wala wala bang bang

i watched the CCC concert 2nyte.. went with mrs simon, ms low and da family was held at the recital studio @ da esplanade... man they were really quite good man...!!! i even got their cd n i got the chance to get it autographed too.. they were very entertaining! they opened with FEEL the GROOVE which plays on the radio now...

but my fav few were one of the songs written by Cheryl Miles which was this number she did with x-tomic and this other song that Cristal Simon wrote that was bout a bad break-up.. i think it was called cant wait ard for a miracle.. damn nice sia...

song came back all the way from dover to meet up with me... so damn sweet...!! we went to this place called g-spot on sultan.. met rachel there.. music was ok la.. dance floor was damn not happenin can.. ha ha..

din do much went home early... gotta work tmr....!!!

whoopie...

jus found out awhile ago that my trip to bangkok is confirmed.. yipee..!! i'm leaving on the 22nd.. will be there for bout 8days i think and i will be stayin at the Sukhothai and the Dusit Thani... trip to Bali for the new years is yet to be confirmed.. ha ha.. but i noe for sure i wun be here for the whole hols...

the best part is that i will be seein andy there.. whoopie..!!!

spent most of the day at sara's place with markie,nick,marcus n darren... watched 13goin30 (partly) and TOTALLY enjoyed watchin Jesus Christ Superstar... man... whatz da buzz tell me wastsa happenin' i totally think that e show is da best man... music n dncing n the whole direction of the movie..

m re-reading dan browns the da vinci code.. n it puts all of mary mag's actions in a different light when she's around jesus... ha ha..
oh ya nick posed an interesting question of whether we thot judas was sent to heaven or hell...

wanted to go to zouk 2nyte.. had money but den i would be broke the rest of the week so i thot i'd gif it a pass... man... so sad... i haven't clubbed in ages... well it feels that way.. esp since the past few weeks prior i was like going evryday... ha ha.. i reallli wonder where i got the money frm.. but most of the time i get good deals at clubs so its all good... ha ha...

well i bot THE COMPANY at pasir ris (original k dun play play) n guess i'm gonna go watch it now... wahahaha... will gif u a full report of how it went tmr aite... nitez for now... signin out...

sky captain joe...

...woke up real early today.. @ bout 6.30am... man it felt like i was in secondary school again.. ha ha.. met markie @ tampines (was late as usual-couldn't find my cap!!!) n we headed to da airport to send sara n jul off... they were goin' to shanghai to meet their parents...

went to sara's place after n finally gotta meet sky captain joe.. woo hoo.. he's really such a cutie.. i swear he must haf been a dog in his past life cause of his beheaviour n all.. soooo damn cute man....!!! he loves his pebbles.... ha ha... tried makin' lunch,hopefully i didn't poison mark n nick too much...

jus came back awhile ago... helped bring joe over to nick's place.. helped cleaned his kitty litter n seriously it looked like "muah-chee"... wahahahaha... took bus 87 home frm sengkang , overslept n almost got lost... ha ha lucky i was calm...

jason is in da hospital... so poor thing... dun wanna talk too much bout it.. got into an accident in the mornin.. they say he'll prob be discharge next week.. mite need an opt.. man...!! but if u wanna go c him he's @ NUH...(damn far can) saw his mum today for the first time.. gawd she's so damn pretty...!!!

i got this article from my fav webbie... love the title...

ANIMALS ARE NOT OURS TO WEAR

With so many wonderful alternatives to wool, fur, and leather, there's simply no need to use animal skins to cover your own skin. For every wool sweater, leather belt or jacket, or bit of fur trim, animals are tortured and mutilated in ways that would make any compassionate person's skin crawl. Sheep, cows, foxes, rabbits, minks, and other animals used for their fleece, fur, or skins feel pain and suffer just like the dogs and cats in our own homes, yet chunks of their flesh are hacked off, they are electrocuted, their necks are snapped, and their throats are slit open, often without any painkillers. Join kind people everywhere and shed your skins-wear only compassionate, animal-free clothing.

uncolourful

i've realised that the past few days my blogs have been pretty plain with no colour... funny i feel that's how life has been for me the past few dayz.. been havin so much on my mind... i cant be alone cause when i am i jus think n think n think n end up upsetting myself.. its so damn weird... i'm thinkin bout things i shouldn't even been thinkin abt..

but aniwaez... today i had a good talk with a... umm... fren... well kinda.. sorry to bother u at work but m so glad i let u noe how i feel bout certain things... aarrgghh... i jus reali wish i had more chances to show u what i'm talkin bout... i hope i din upset u or anything ya.. u noe i care for u n that wld b the last thing on my mind to hurt u in any way... but ha ha enuf bout that...

got a dinner 2nyte.. not lookin 4ward to it.. probably gonna meet a whollotta snobbish ppl.. plus i haf to wear a dress, like a proper dress... realli not lookin forward to it... can die la... aarrgghh!!!

apologies...

to my mee-boy n my sweet pea mark...

i'm sorry bout today guys...

i realli couldn't stay awake...

so extremely bladdy tired... i wuff u guys...

somebody save me...

gina thanks for savin my life today... realli... oh my gawd... what wld i haf done without u... ha ha...n i think tht ice cube place, the one where they spent so much on the decor dat dey din haf enuf money for the ingrdients to make crepes.. which was wat they were supposed to be sellin.. well aniwae i think that place is cool... n ur on my invite list aite.. i had a gr8 lunch with u n lyn...

sorry i was so salah... i was damn tired la.. couldn't think properly la... aniwaes... thnx once again.. n ha ha... i think i'll keep my ciggies plain without the weed for now...

oh ya i think i still have insomnia

toodle-doo...

gins came down to teach with me 2day.. so fun.. altho the kids suffered.. ha ha with the stretchin n all.. i noe she is a great teacher.. she realli is.. n it was sooooo great to see her... we hung out at cartel after n talked n talked n talked...

we went to st. georges after tat... my gawd cavan,dennis n the mickey mouse guy were so funny... they were talkin bout their sec sch dayz n how they got canning every other day n how they got suspended n stuff.. damn jia lat man.. ha ha.. song joined us but i couldn't stay long.. so sad... sorry song..

ha ha... aniwae i think im sufferin from serious insomnia.. i can neva get to sleep at nite n im sooo damn tired durin the day... man!!!!

bang bang... my baby shot me down...

have u ever felt like u realli wanna cry but u can't...
it's da singlemost irritating feelin in da world...
next to wen some1 steals the last(n sometimes the only)
blue mNm from YOUR pack...

i think i got myself into a realli bad situation...
now my feelings r involved n i noe i'm gonna get hurt...
sometime soon i will get hurt for sure...
it all depends on 1 single decision...

sometimes i think fuck la...
its so not worth it...
n i've been told its not worth it...
in da end i shud be da one ending things...

but that's my weakness...
n he noes it too...
i'll neva end it...
i'll do anything to be close to u...

n da feeling sucks...
it jus sucks...
n it hurts too...

bang bang... my baby shot me down...

mah-mee remembers mee!!!!

goot moooornin!!!! my radio started blastin at 9.30 dis mornin... <U2's HOLD ME KISS ME THRILL ME KILL ME every mornin> but i jus kept myself under my blanky till the phone rang awhile later... cutie pie woke me up... woo hoo... call was short n abrupt but still cutie pie remembered... awwwww.... thank u....

gotta be @ HAIG GIRLS by 12.30.... hmmmm.... shud be quite interesting, doubling up with jewel to teach all the baby classes...

got another msg frm edna this mornin.. she's retunin on the 5th not the 9th.... YIPEE!!!!
she also sends her condolences to mark n da family....

will be going to da wake with sara 2nyte... read a msg frm nick this mornin... an interestin fact bout how his, "grandparents were born in the same yr of 1927 and passe in the same year of 2004" so i qoute... it must be hard losing both grams in the same year... but at least u noe they're in heaven together... united once again... once again my love n condolences goes out to the family...

flub bug

wah lau.. still got my flu n its gettin' worse..

need to get a jab.. some antibiotic thingy..

aarrrgghh.. not lookin forward..

supposed to be there at one but as usual im late..

can't seem to wake up early anymore..

i mean seriously i CANT WAKE UP..

i'm concious @ bout 10 everyday but my eyes jus cant open..

something's wrong..

but den again i had a very exhilarating day y'day..

ha ha.. man!!!

had cheese prata again last nyte..

no wonder i'm coughing like fuck again..

nitey nite!!!

hey hey jus a quick one b4 i hit da sack... i still haf da freakin flu today.. got some medication so feel abit beta... got to talk to lotsa ppl i haven't been in contact with a long tyme... spoke wif latiff... ha ha... zai's fiancee's best bud... met him at zai's engagement... oh ya btw.. dat gurl is now an air-stewardess... yipee!!! aniwae latiff will be back on da 8th... he's in england now for trainin my gawd he's one lucky motha*****!!!!

got a msg frm my MAH-MEE edna... yipee!!! m so happy to hear from her... she said she misses me.. and ha ha she even asked bout S***** even tho she din reali noe how to spell da name... i forwarded da msg to S**'*** n reali made his nyte i hope...

well a sad sad note... ard midnite got a msg frm mark bout his gram-ma goin up to join PAPA JESUS... :o( its da same gram-ma dat he n nick share... my condolences to da family... i'lll be der 2nyte k... hang in der boys!!! i'll pray for granm-ma 2nyte kkz...

well its blanky time... till tmr.... nitez...

did u noe bout da moo moo

i bot some realli cute moo moo stuff at bugis y'day with mark.. they've got this little push-cart stall.. dey look like happy house stuff but at hallf da price... very da cute... n dat reminds me.. its been a long time since i put up a moo moo article so here goes one bout how they're slaughtered... very short one la...

DID U NOE ANOT??:

"Every year, 35.7 million cows are stunned, hung upside down, bled to death, and skinned in slaughterhouses. The federal Humane Slaughter Act stipulates that cows should be stunned by a mechanical blow to the head and rendered unconscious before they are strung up, but the high speed of assembly lines that often process up to 400 cows per hour results in the improper stunning, each year, of millions of cows, who are consequently skinned and dismembered while they are still kicking and crying out in terror."

Yeah so i'm not some vegetarian preacher encouraging u guys to gif up ur beef or anything... i noe how some of u men live for ur beefsteaks n burgers but i wanna make u aware n concious- next time u have a freakin hamburger make sure u finish up every bit of ur burger n dun waste shit aite- cause gawd oney noes what cows haf to go thru jus 2become that burger for u!!!

cow crying cause of pepper put into his eyes  

i hate havin da flu........

i awake my my flu is like fuck...
now i coughing too...
damn damn damn....
supposed to go ZOUK 2nyte...
dunno whether i'll go animoe...
so sad... i haven't danced in such a long time...
be it ballet or in a club... its jus been damn long...
aarrggghhh...
but den again i haven't done alot of stuff in a long time come to think of it..
ha ha.. ws chattin wif sha las nite.. aahhh.. mayb dats y my throat so pain...
ha ha... dunno wat i'm doin 2day...
but onli hopin' for one thing... ha ha...
to c some one... ha ha... so desperate...
ha ha ha ha....

SARA's voice is like whoa!!!!

wula-wula-tang-tang... wasssuuupppp!!!! so fun today i slept n slept n slept and guess wat after tat i slept somemore.... wah si bei shiok... met mark bout 6 in da evenin we went to find his sum soft digestable food cause he jus got his braces on... n he looks sooooo cute...!!! i alwis liked ppl with braces i had mine on for wah lan wat 3 yrs and almost 2 yrs of retainers after... i had a complecated jaw ha ha...

we finally found fish soup-which was da best as fu lu shu, n i ended up havin nothin healthy to eat, wanted to haf kway chap but da chee-bye uncle said he wouldn't jus sell me the kway with da tau pok.... so sad can... i had nasi lemak instead frm dis like damn dirtteee store but must admit the food was damn bladdy nice...

damn unhealthy, after tat i coughed all the way back to bugis junction where we were jus in time to catch BRIDE AND PREJUDICE... it wasn't fan -fan-tastic but i must say it was quite funny... hey ppl who watch hindi or indian films do u ever question where the ppl who randomly appear when they start singing appear from>>plus they're alwis co-ordinated dressing wise>>plus they all know da same moves and lyrics.... like quite cool ritez... man...!!! i noe if mark read this he'd probably be goin "shanx its jus a movie!!!" yes yes i noe... but still... go watch BRIDE n PREJUDICE n c la... u'll be questionin it too

went to Letitia's place at Hotel Rendevouz after.. ha ha wait i noe its called PUBLIC HOUSE but hack i still like callin it Letitia's place... well aniwae we went der to hear SARA sing... MAN!!! i mean sara can sing n all but there's somethin' bout her voice thats very aesthetically appealing... plus she got da face-the very can make it and shud be singapore idol face!!! Seriously!!!
met nick n sha'ari der... they r such jokers i swear!! kept disturbin me bout.... arrgghh!!! nevermind... left early bout 11.20 i think... had one malibu, found out they ran out of pineapple so yes i had WATER the rest of the nite... and mark if u catch my flu cause u shared my water i dunno ar... ur bladdy problem...

met my dearie whoom i havent seen in ages, sent me back i got cheese prata along the way home... more unhealthy food... oh ya PS: IM NOT REPLYIN VIA FRIENDSTER!!

i daddy-kate this to u........

Every time i think of you
I feel a shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me, the wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself, that if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

thank u adrian......

this blog is speacially to thank my man ADRIAN....
thank u baby so much for all the pictures... man, man, man....!!!!!!
shit man... did u guys check JIN out...
very hot la, relly... real life even betta.... ha ha...

oh my gawd... i cant believe... i spent like 30 hrs awake straight since yesterday!!!!!
met sha'ari at hotel rendevouz at bout 7plus (letitia's bar-i cant believe i still dunno da name of the place)....
den we had to take the train cause somebody found the
distance to walk ONE mrt stop was unbearable....wat sia sha.... got sum LEVIS den

we had dinner at this fuckin nice pasta place at taka...PASTA CAFE..
my gawd it was damn good...!!
den heard his fren play at INDOCHINE-AQUADISIAC...
shit that place is so damn classy... next time ur der check out da toilets aite.. the sink very stylo la...

we took da bus home n i almost had to carry sha up to the second deck.... ha ha...
shit man he is such a joker... den i helped him get in touch with his feminine side
(u shud haf told me u had camera la babe on ur phone) (12 hrs awake)

wen i got home had two hours of sleep till i got the most upsetting phone call.... :o(
but its ok things all worked out....
marc baby n i chatted till 7am in the mornin and den we
met at TM for breakfast and watched TAXI... (17 hrs awake)

he had training n i hung out shopping.. n finally i decided to leave cause he was
taking damn long to come back n i was fallin asleep at starbucks... BY MYSELF till bout 4pm!! (26hrs awake)
Finally came back and knocked out till now... (10.40pm)
oney to wake up to receiving all da pics from adrian baby...
thank you sweetie... man...!!!!

me and adrian @ CHINABLACK for MC JIN (70%drunk)

da gang - Morgan(sexy), Adrian(da man), SONG (soooo cute) and (my baby) KALA 

me, adrian (check out his face-damn red can) and kala (cool oney)  

meeeeee and da man chinky eye emcee JIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

ThE rEsT iS hIsToRy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok so here's the spill on what wen on tues09/11 @ CHINABLACK!!!! Man it was so happeniN' started off bout 9plus la with prep performances by ....(eh kkz i cant remember now but i noe one of em was BONAFIDE and der was DJ KO FLOW n he did this thing with this awesome guy who did funky sound shit) Ao aniwaez, Jin finally comes on with Ballz n they do their thing, i'm rite up front with Song (SING SONG SING SONG) and we're singing along to SO AFRAID.... cause we like noe all da lyrics and Jin gives a shout out "Yeah i hear u Girrrrl!!!!"
I totally hyperventilate and was on the verge of dropping dead... ha ha... and we're singing along "most of u y'all sound da same, with ur fancy cars n y'all diamond rings... dunn u noe its about to change, WHAT R U SO AFRAID OF???!!!!"
But the most happenin part of the nyte, was when he requested for "two fine gals to REPRESENT the women of SINGAPORE" and ME ME ME ME i went on... Eh not that i truly represent the true Singapore gal but hey someone had to do the job.... Song gets pulled up and some other chinky gal with hot legs come up to join us(extra oney) and we're groovin to SENORITA.... Gawd JIN was da man... he was SOOOOOOO DAMN HOOOOOTTTTT!!!! Sweaty n all with dat tatooo on his neck n stuff.... MAN!!!
He does his thang on the mic with ballz and they rock da house!!! And da nitez goes on n it becomes especially sentimental when he brings on SAME CRY... ha ha i disappear for while (Sorry Song) and am back in time to.... LEARN SOME CHINESE....!!!! Ha ha... He hangs out at the VIP corner the rest of the nite but all alone :o( sayang oney.... But he he... dats wen i got to grab da chance to take a pic with him.... AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!! Now all i gotta do is wait for ADRIAN to send me da pics....
So i cld go on n on n on bout da nite but i guess i'll just stop here for now aite and classify the rest as history........................

cutie moo 

WoO hOO!!!

WAHAAAAA!!!!!! I've finally got myself a BLOG!!! Something i wanted for such a damn long time.... Now all i have do is figure out how to use this... ha ha... this is gonna be so fun... lets jus hope i actualli post stuff up.... well the BIGGEST event of the year happened last nyte, and I WAS PART OF IT!!!! Aite aite... dats rite... ME ME ME!!! I got to be onstage with MC JIN frm THE RUFF RYDERS and it was a totally awesome experience!!!!

i like my CHEESE.......but...now i noe this

MY MILKSHAKE SENDs ALL THE BOYS TO DA YARD......milk...cheese...butter...cheese...oooohhh cheese....these are like the things that make up the majority of my diet (ha ha, n i wonder y i'm still so fat)... and of course the best part is that all these products come from my best friend... MOO MOO.... but i was on my fav webbie today and was reading some of their previous posts and this is what i found out....

COWS raised for milk are typically confined to crowded concrete-floored milking pens, where they are milked by machines that often cut or shock them. Some farmers inject cows with synthetic growth hormones, which increase the likelihood of mastitis, a painful infection in the cows' udders. They are repeatedly impregnated, only to have every baby torn from their side shortly after birth. Both calf and mother cow, powerfully bonded by maternal love, are known to cry out desperately for days when separated. The cows' female offspring are forced to become future "milk machines," and their frightened male calves are trucked to veal farms where they are chained inside tiny, dark crates. Motherless and alone, they are unable to take even one step in any direction, turn around, or lie down comfortably. When they are slaughtered, they are often too sick or lame to walk.

Like fuck rite, i mean i love my bovine buddies n all but damn i can't give up cheese but still i didn't noe they were going thru all this shit soo bad... Damn it... My poor moo moo's... so the next time u have something that boosts the calcium in ur body... give a little thot to how that product got on ur table aite...

moomoos in crammed condition....  

MC JIN from da RuFF Ryders'