Friday, March 25

i seriously i think i need a psychiatrist.. badly.. i think i have bi-polar.. i realli do.. look at my research, if u noe me well enough... u'd agree that there is the possibility that i m suffering from it..

Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. Different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through, the symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe.

Bipolar disorder causes dramatic mood swings—from overly "high" and/or irritable to sad and hopeless, and then back again, often with periods of normal mood in between. Severe changes in energy and behavior go along with these changes in mood. The periods of highs and lows are called episodes of mania and depression. [i think i have more mania]

Signs and symptoms of mania (or a manic episode) include:
Increased energy, activity, and restlessness
Excessively "high," overly good, euphoric mood
Extreme irritability
Racing thoughts and talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another
Distractibility, can't concentrate well
Little sleep needed

Unrealistic beliefs in one's abilities and powers
Poor judgment
Spending sprees
A lasting period of behavior that is different from usual
Increased sexual drive
Abuse of drugs, particularly cocaine, alcohol, and sleeping medications
Provocative, intrusive, or aggressive behavior
Denial that anything is wrong

A manic episode is diagnosed if elevated mood occurs with three or more of the other symptoms most of the day, nearly every day, for 1 week or longer. If the mood is irritable, four additional symptoms must be present.

Signs and symptoms of depression (or a depressive episode) include:

Lasting sad, anxious, or empty mood
Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed, including sex
Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or of being "slowed down"
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Restlessness or irritability
Sleeping too much, or can't sleep

Change in appetite and/or unintended weight loss or gain
Chronic pain or other persistent bodily symptoms that are not caused by physical illness or injury
Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts

A depressive episode is diagnosed if five or more of these symptoms last most of the day, nearly every day, for a period of 2 weeks or longer

AAARRRGGGHHH!!! i'm a manic depressive alright!!!
ok so haven't blogged for so damn long... now i dun evn noe where to start!! been ultra busy with skool and stuff... also got my little ones going in for exams, so been preppin them with xtra classes n all.. yesterday a whole group of them went in... aaarrrgghhh!!! so stressful... was so extremely scared.. n nervous.. i shouldn't be.. but jus was.. wore my lucky dice.. its so pretty.. its this little dice that has all the "numerics" in diamonds.. one of my many birthday pressies... n u noe who u r.. who gave it to me... thank u so much.. i got so many cool gifts for my birthday!!! haha... thanks guys!! aniwae.. after an eventful 9hours at THE SERANGOON.. had to rush down to skool for my rehearsals... was so so upset cause... first: i was 15 mins late second: not my whole cast was there... aarrggh!!

m not so happy with my choreography.. its jus not my thing i guess.. choreographing that is.. i dunno.. i have all these ideas but not much ability to convey out exactly what i want...
well k la... but before i go... thank u to baby boy soNg for keeping me so very well entertained today.. realli appreciate u coming down... oh ya btw.. when did u take ur shower in the end... wahahaa... smelly poo.. mulu

Thursday, March 24


this is the point where he was the only one left and decided to go round n... umm.. u noe i noe la.. get lucky with all da gals Posted by Hello

the couple of the nite.. who remained faithful to each other n didnt joinin our "games" Posted by Hello

"STOP!!" and "WHAT"S GOING ON HERE??!!" how did nd's body get sooo good... yum...  Posted by Hello

me n my sexy boy  Posted by Hello

screamer but cute, sulker but sexy and sexy but high Posted by Hello

too cute... Posted by Hello

up yours Posted by Hello

okie songs turn Posted by Hello

now this one we took turns to violate... we couldn't help it he was tooo cute... Posted by Hello

he was shouting help! Posted by Hello

da gals... frm left.. jeny, gina, muah n trish Posted by Hello

only BEST friends can do this!! Posted by Hello

yes we were violating him but he didn't mind... haha  Posted by Hello

ok if u look carefully they were both lookin at my boobs  Posted by Hello

he was more than semi gone now Posted by Hello

andy muah n gins... he's pressin my boob so hard.. he was semi gone! Posted by Hello

Monday, March 21

oh my gawd!!! i have seriously not blogged for a damn damn long tyme man!!! been so overly busy... turnin 21 n all... ha ha... had so bladdy many happenin things happning!! aniwae jus to entertain here r some photos from my birthday at gotham!!