its way past 2007

so i'm finally back... probably like my first post in 2007

oh well alot has changed..

really wanna get a new skin...

my life is finally right... still needs just a little fine tuning..

i'll survive...

holidy... lets not celebrate!

i'm up early.. really i am.. this is early.. its 12.49pm now and i got up at bout 12 jus b4 as n sufer-ree left for work.. i've been slipin llike a pig jus cause i aint got n work till fri..

its da PSLE marking n there's no scholl hence no classes on.. i've been dead bored and thank goodness i still got a baby class on tonight so shouldn't be so bad la.. aargh.. i hate not woring i reallly do.. know i'm weird.. its jus me la...

stuffy... snuffy... snookems...

i jus finish a damn long day of teaching n runnin around.. was very glad to go back to st margarets today.. haven't been there in two weeks.. i missed my girls so much.. woke up this mornin with a real stuffy nose.. n its worse now in this lan-gaming place where im using the net.. no wonder its so cheap they put u in this small arse room with a fan and with thirty other hormone raging teenagers who shuffle between surfing porn and lan-gaming.. no ac no ventilation no damn peace and quiet... but ha ha wat ya expect at a dollar fifty per hour..

but im with my ba.. so i dun feel so bad.. m damn damn tired tho... shit man.. still gotta go to rehearsal.. wait i want to go... i have to go... i must i must... aargh!!!!!!!!

heloooOOOoooooo........ i'm here at home... on arin's new good-lookin comp... ryan's playin tat damn game on xbox yet AGAIN!!!!! aaaAAArrrRRgH!! he's addicted!! damn!

had a super long day, been out teaching since 9.. well kinda.. den hung out with gins at ang mo kio for a bit and headed down to john's rehearsal at lasalle... aaahhh... man he ran thru parts of CARMINA today... damn its so so soooOOOoo good... i reccommend everyone to watch.. will post up da poster soon...

me n bubbs went down to cine to catch a movie.... we saw this piece P.S. good attempt with the soryline... but it didn't follow through well enough... still left me confused... ending was like a too good to be true kinda thing.. totally unexpected yet expected.. i know ur not getting wat im sayin..

i so wanna watch the break-up.. aaarggh, i cant believe i missed it..

anwaez.. think im gonna end it for the night... m very tired and legs are aching frm being in heels the whole of friday night...

the stunning view from the stage...

(super nice) musician gal & me...

me n sha after the show...

mr artistic director n me... backstage!!

bubby n me after the show...

bubby n me after the show...

n now the update..... SOUNDWAVES!!

so now the update i promised... couple of months ago.. i got to do a production with People's Association thru Kavitha n Apsara Asia... n it was gonna be held at........ ESPLANADE THEATRE!! so yeah i couldn't say no... well truly i did cause i had hell of a lot going on at that time and it was gonna be really hectic for me, managing teaching, rehearsals and my life.. but with the support of Kavi and of course my bubby... i stuck on.. n m so glad i did.. cause i had so much fun n it was such an experience...

so the theatre alone is like massive and sooooOOOOoo amazing.. the backstage is as big.. no wait bigger much bigger than the stage itself.. we danced to live music and the choreography of Mr Fang Dong Kai... i was in like one piece only.. *sobz* wait.. who m i kidding... one was more than enough... hahaha... the costume kindda sucked.. the colour so didn't go with my skin tone.. bimbo i know... but u see the pics and be the judge aite...

i looOOOOved the make-up... i did it myself... okie i lied... sha helped.. oh ya... sharin was in the show... of course.. haha... forgot... thank gawd he was there i wld have never survived otherwise... but okie wait, seriously the m ake up i did.. loads of it and i dun only mean the foundation...

anyway m gonna post up some pics for memory... this one is of me and ryan, my bubby...

i'm back!!!

yeah!! so i finally recovered the password for my blog... aargh!! it wasn't as hard as i thot it wld be... so i'm very upset at myself for not having done it sooner... i'm such a lazy ass wen it comes to comp stuff...

my comp at home is finally fixed.. i got a new hard drive which means i lost everything from my old one... sad sad, very sad... aint got no net yet, nor ink for my printer.. but that's all good...

m at da net cafe now.. down near stamford house.. ha ha.. m very happy that i'm finally posting on the net again.. gonna make this a regular habit for me.. hopefully...

yeah.. update on my life coming soon....

me at home... **winkz** 

play play play playthat song in my head

the song keeps playin... the steps r running... aarrggghhh!! rehearsals have been crazy... but i'm enjoying evry minute of it i swear... even bein an understudy is fun!!! it realli is... gonna teach tmr so will be missing my whole slot of rehearsals... **damn** but i miss my kids... not gonna c most of them during the june hols... **sobz** well its nitey nite for me nowsiez...

^ NO LOVE ^ NOT LOVED ^

dearest u... u noe who u r....

my foundation was rocked
my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old
I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you

at that particular time

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what us meant

I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself.
i am

you knew you needed more time
time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to (want to)leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left (haven't yet but i might)

at that particular time